' demn.nebes '

sllnye aku jerk yg tgk bnd neh.pndg dri jauh.
but right now.aku yg kne hadap bnd neh.
adoyaiii...
aku nk BETUNANG!!!
huhuhu..tgl lgik bpe ari jerk neh.
aku x expect pn nk tunang awl neh.sbb budget around 28 bru nk pk.tpi 2lerh
org ckp.jodoh.
weehuuuu..
byk xsiap lgi neh.peninpenin aku dh neh..tlg lerh.nk pengsan neh.
pk cne aku nt.elok kew muke aku nt.
xpengsan kew aku nt.
menggeletar kew aku nt ble nk sarung cincin nt.
lagik1,tgh pk cne si pemetik camera nk snap pic aku yg agak sengal alam yg ske sgt wt muke bknbkn.
uiskkkk.
mak&abah lak dh excited gler neh.xsbr nk tgg.
'mak owh mak.ank awk neh bru nk btunang bkn kawen.'
adoyaiiii.
*lgik skali aku ngeluh tgk gelagat mak&abah aku neh.hukhukhuk :( *
urmm..byk bnd aku pk neh.
pasneh status aku pn dh len.
pegerakkan aku pn tebatas.
pegaulan aku pn tebatas.
pemakaian aku pn tebatas.
smue lerh tebatas.
huhuhu
xsangka lak smue neh leh jdik secepat neh.
ingtkn leh bepoyepoye lgik.
huha sne sni lgik.
xpyh pk nk blaja msk lgik.
xpyh pk tggjwb lgik.
xpyh pk nk smpn uit lgik.
xpyh pk smue lerh lgik.
mak owh mak
abah owh abah
ankmu kepeningan neh.
tuluntuluntulun
neh 1st perubahan paling besar aku wt.
pasneh de lak 2nd perubahan palingpalingpaling besar aku wt.
ayakkkkkk
dri
cik hazreemahazianysarani
tukar jdik
puan hazreemahazianysarani
pas2 dengar lak panggilan bru tok aku
'ibu'
iskiskisk
cant imagine bout it lgik
lh wt aku jdik penin neh
kuase owh kuase
tlg msk dlm bdn aku neh.
bgi aku jdik kuat
supeye aku lh hadap smue neh ngn ati yg tebuke.


~ amin

' s u d a h '

sudah berlalu biarkanlah berlalu
maafkan aku
aku semakin tidak mengenali mu
makin tidak memahami mu
lihat diriku hancur karena mu
lihat diriku berlutut di hadapmu
hempaskan aku karena dirimu
maafkan aku jika
ini penghujung segala cerita


~ bebaskn aku.aku ingin terbang melayang

: : whuts in my mind? : :

him!!!my monkey man.lovehimdemnmuchiii!!!bb,i love u okey.no matter whut happen.alwaz b wit me.beside me.i love u.no word can say how much i love u bb. :)

: : MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY : :

1. Where did u take your fb profile pic?
in my room.wit new bongekbongek glasess.my bf said 'syg,u looks like cekgu yg ajar matematik,' cettt!! ;)

2. What exactly are u wearing right now?
baju kurung lerh.sbb kt opis neh.xkn nk pkai skirt.

3. What is your current problem?
mms akuxlh gune!!!siolnye hp.

4. What makes you happy most?
*s e c r e t*heeeeee

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
Yuna - Cinta Sempurna.hohoho

6. Any celeb you would marry?
Brandon Byod.heeeee.or someone else yg agakagak sme.Brandon Boyot!!! ;p

7. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
no body lolx

8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?
yup.pas2 jdik kelibot.hakhakhak

9. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
xde.hakhakhak

10. Do yo still watching kiddie movies or kiddie TV shows?
hehehehehe~ yup!!!powerpuffgurl.addicted2 blossom,buttercup,bubble.hakhakhak

11. Do you speak any languages?
malay of coz! n
english..
12. Do you ever watch MTV?
yezzz.one of my fav program.

CHAPTER 1:
* * * * * * * * *


1. Nickname(s) (for frienss):
ema.emot.comot.

2. Current locations :
ats bumi bwh langi.hahahahaha

4. Eye color:
hitam kot.xpnh belek pn.tpi rse itam lerh.hahahahaha

CHAPTER 2:
* * * * * * * * *

Do u get along well with your parents?
of coz lerh~

CHAPTER 3: Favorites
* * * * * * * * *

Ice Creams
chocolate flavor!!!!

Shampoo / conditioner:
pantene / sunsilk

CHAPTER 4: Do you..
* * * * * * * * *

Dance in the shower?
hakhakhak.never ever do tht.mawu tetonggeng jth nt.sengal~~

Do you write on your hand?
yesss.time stdy dlu.toyol.hahahaha

Call people back?
erkkk.tgk spe & situation.

Believe in love?
sometimes.hakhakhak \(^o^)/

Any mental health issues?
hahahaha.de.2yg mereng sket neh.bf sll tahan sbr jerk..

CHAPTER 5: Have you..
* * * * * * * * *

1. Broken bone?
japjap.pk.urmmm.pnh.

2. Had physical therapy?
yesss.

3. Taken painkillers?
yup! (^_~)


HOW I END MY SENTENCES
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

1. I LOVE: my CREW.my BRANDON BOYOT.my DRUG.my JIMMY.my EITO&EICHI. :))

2. I don't understand: y sometimes life being sooooo difficult?

3. When I wake up in the morning: demnnnn!!!mlsnye nk g keje

4. Life is full of: love.fun. :))

5. I get annoyed very quickly when: someone being 'mengadengade'!!!

6. Parties are: bestttttt!!

7. Dogs are: bodonye soklan.HANJENG LERH NGOK

8. Cats are: meowmeow.love my jimmy temoxxx yg kdgkdg sombunk nk mampos ngn aku!!

9. Tomorrow is: TUESDAY!!! arghhh.ble nk sabtu neh?

10. If i had a million dollars I would: yeayyyy! shopping,shopping,shopping.n still shopping.heee

11. I'm totally terrifies of: darkness & loneliness

: : drama love & relationship : :

It's not about who's right, or who's wrong

It's not about who's weaker, or who's strong

It's not about who's innocent, or who's fault

It ain't really about that kind of thing at all

It's not about who does it, who done it, or did it to who

Don't matter if the both of you lose

It's really not bout nothing, except for me and you

It's all about drama, and love, and relationships

And when the going gets tough, you deal with it

And you don't ever, you never walk away from it

You hold on, and be strong

It's all about drama, and trust, and making it

If your somebody, mess up, you take it in

Don't let no body come between you you just stay with it

And hold on and be strong

And Hold on

It's not about the stupid things that we say

We're always saying stupid things anyway

Its not about the secrecy or the lies

Girl everybody got a secret to hide

It's not about who was it, or was she, whose creeping on who

Won't matter if the both of us lose

It's really not about nothing, except for me and you

It's all about drama, and love, and relationships

And when the going gets tough, you deal with it

And you don't ever, you never walk away from it

You hold on, and be strong

It's all about drama, and trust, and making it

If your somebody, mess up, you take it in

Don't let no body come between you you just stay with it

And hold on and be strong

And Hold on

Ain't about your pride

Ain't about yourself

It's about the two of you, and no one else

Ain't about the hurt

Ain't about the lies

Ain't about the crazy things thats running through your mind

It's about the love that's suppose to last and never die

Its all about drama, and love, and relationships

And when the going gets tough, you deal with it

And you don't ever, you never walk away from it

You hold on, and be strong

It's all about drama, and trust, and making it

If your somebody, mess up, you take it in

Don't let nobody come between you you just stay with it

And hold on and be strong

And Hold on

: : 2 0 0 9 : :

2009 IS OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?
a wonderful year fly pass us so quickly......i found this questionaire in facebook and tought.. "why not".......

lost a friend?
~ last year?alhamdulillah.nope!!

stayed single almost the whole year?
~ i wished.... :)

had your heart broken?
~ yes

had a stalker?
~ yea....hahahaaa~

done something you've regretted?
~ yes... very much.. but the outcome..not bad la...

lost someone?
~ yes

dated your boss' daughter/son?
~ nope

got fired from your job?
~ nope

cut class?
~ guilty....but for some good reasons... :p

were involved in something you'll never forget?
~ owhh..yes indeed.

visited a different country?
~ yup!! :)

lost something important to you?
~ yup.

got a gift you adore?
~ i cherished every single gift that was given to me.. so yes... :)

tripped over a coffee table?
~ yes...all the time

dyed your hair?
~ yarghhh :)

went to a party?
~yup!!

read a great book?
~ 'Mama Boys'.... it's my favourite book of all time...

saw one of your favourite bands/artists live?
~ i adore all bands so..yes... local bands can be awesome as well.... :)

2009: Your Love Life

Did you break up with anyone?
~ yes

Did you meet anyone special?
~ i met so many amazing individuals :)

Do you like someone right now?
~ can't really tell if i'm into that person for his personality or for him..

2009: Friends and Enemies

Did you meet any new friends this year?
~ yes!!! and i'm glad i did!

Did you dislike anyone?
~ i don't hate of dislike others. everyone got their own opinions. :p

Did you make any new enemies?
~ well....i hope not...but if i do....im so sorry...

Did you resolve any fights?
~ i don't think i was involve in any fights....

Resolved friends' fights?
~ well.... i tried....

Who was your closest friend?
~ huriah abdul shukor.si pendek.heee

Did you grow apart from anyone?
~ as people grows older, they eventually got to know who's their real friends and foes... and we can't always be there for all of them....

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
~ i have no regrets at all because for me.... there's always a reason behind this wonderful friendship that we make... :)

2009: Your BIRTHDAY!

Did you have a cake?
~ yesss!!!

What did you do for your birthday?
~ well...1 of my frenz *right now is my bf.heeee*,make a surprise birthday party at the beach.its was so sweet!!!

Did you have a party?
~ not really a party but yea....sure...

Did you get any presents?
~ yes.... i cherish it all.....

If so what was the best thing you got?
~ i got everyone i love to celebrate it with me.... :)

2009: All about YOU

Did you change at all this year?
~ everyday is a new day.... i've learned more about the nature, about others and myself... if i said that i've changed...it's for the better.....

Did you dye your hair?
~ told u before....yess!!!

Did you get your hair cut?
~yes.... quite a few....

Did you change your style?
~ nope

Were you in school?
~ no...i'm way over that one...right now im working lolx

Did you have a job?
~ yes yes yes in gov sector.i love my jobs!*sbb goyang kaki jerk*

Did you drive?
~well....i do have my driver's licence... :P

Did anyone close to you give birth?
~ nope :(

Would you change anything about yourself now?
~ just to be more positive on things and learn to be more patient...

2009: Wrap Up.

Is 2009 a good year?
~ yes.... a wonderful splendid year indeed although some unexpected tragedies happened..

Do you think 2010 will top 2009?
~ shall pray for a great one ahead.... :D

I confess that in 2009 I've
~ did some crazy things but i've changed for the better and to be a better person in life...

stayed single for the whole year
~ ill engagement this mei lolx :)

kissed in the snow
~ if there's snow in Malaysia..i would love to do it....

celebrated Halloween
~ nope.. stayed in with my family.. :)

kissed in the rain
~ owhh wow...that would be romantic too..... mayb!!wit my bb!! *maliq pnh wt dlu.mish him suddenly :'( *

had your heart broken
~ yes..

broke someone else's heart
~ yes.*sheheide sheh omar*im so sorry.but im glad tht ur mine now :)

went over the minutes on your cell phone
- yes.

had a good relationship with someone
~ a great relationship with my family and friends.... :)

someone questioned your sexual orientation
~ yes...

came out of the closet
~ yes... i was shy.... :P

gotten pregnant
~ no... i'm not that extreme...

have a relationship with someone you'll never forget
~ i'll never forget bout 'u'

done something you've regretted
~ yes.. a few...

kissed under mistletoe
~ i wished! XD

: : y e l l o w : :

You

The one I wanted to impress

I thought

I was above you, no less

But now

I see that you I want to be

And I’m

Left to face the real me

: : i am thankful : :

What am I thankful for?

1. L.O.V.E.
   
   
2. For giving me one more chance after another
   
   
3. I wake up in the morning and I can still keep on dreaming
   
   
4. To have someone who can manage my mood swings :)
   
   
5. Crazy sisters moments
   
   
6. Good good good food all year round
   
   
7. High metabolic rate. I can eat whatever I want without worrying about gaining those extra kilos
   

Alhamdulillah

What are you thankful for?

: : siapesaya : :

sometimes I wonder,

but who am I to say.

siapalah saya pon.


*monolog dalaman*

: : miss : :

i miss some people.

wonder if they miss me too?

hehehe

^_^